I remember when my therapist said about medication, "The pills can only do so much, you'll never be 'normal'." Basically, not being normal - whatever that looks like - is fine unless you start holding it against yourself. I can be creative, but some days the Gray Room is in chaos. I can be energetic, other days working crossword puzzles is exhausting. I can be gregarious, other times just the thought of going outside is hard to bear.

The lesson I keep having to learn and relearn is trying to make it work in between the constraints. It seems like being a little off-kilter could beat the heck out of being "normal" if I can embrace it.